The TinaLu Show

More stuff.

2005-09-07T18:18:35Z

My modem HATES me today. Confession: *hanging head* I’m on dialup. I KNOW! I KNOW! Welcome to the dark ages! The whole thing is, I’m paying off a credit card. What’s that have to do with getting highspeed, you ask? Not a damn thing. I could get it at any time, I just haven’t because I want off this damn dialup SO FUCKING BAD that I’m using it as motivation to pay off the card. I won’t allow myself to have the highspeed until the Visa is paid off. Yep. These are the games I play with myself. Back to the modem hating me… I don’t get it! It’s practically new! My last modem was a casualty of a summer lightening storm about 4 months ago. I immediately ran out to Circuit City, purchased this one, brought him home, gave him a nice lil’ house to live in, nurtured him, and we’ve been great friends since. I apparently angered him though at some point a couple weeks ago, and he’s been unhappy and uncooperative since. It keeps like… glitching, and then I end up “booted.” Sometimes it happens repeatedly, sometimes every now and again. I have to disconnect/ reconnect, and then SOMETIMES… it won’t even reconnect. What was once motivation is now just a pain in my ass and isn’t worth this much hassle, so yeah… *calling Charter today*

My older son is reading this book he checked out from the school library last week, Eldest. He likes to read, but I haven’t seen him this gaga over a book since last year when he was reading some book called Eragon. After he disappeared for two days after checking it out, I asked, “Aren’t you going to come out of there and like… eat, or bathe, or both?” Turns out, this book is the sequel to the first one, and there’s a third one coming soon. He's completely into these books. Like… yesterday, some of their friends called and wanted to play after school. Jamey originally decided that Gene would go play, but he was going to stay home and read. Then the plan changed and the friends were coming over to our house instead. He was STILL going to let them come over, and his brother was going to play with them, but he was going to read. “Are you kidding me?! You ARE NOT gonna sit here in your room reading when there are other boys here to play with, boys who are now running wildly around OUR basement trying to kill each other with plastic weapons. GET DOWN THERE!!” Once their friends finally left last night, he disappeared again. Around 9pm I sent the order out to the troops that it was bedtime, yet at 9:17pm, I found him in his room reading. This book is like 600 & something pages long so I asked, “What page are you on?” “395.” “You really need to go to bed.” “Can I get to 400 first? Then I’ll go to sleep.” “Alright, but then it's right into bed. Got it?" "Yep. Love you.” Ten minutes later I noticed that the light in his room was still on. “What page are you on?” *him with a giggle and guilty look on his face* “Uhh… 403?” “Will you go to sleep already?!” I decided to do a lil’ research today. As far as I can tell, these books are along the same lines as the Lord of the Rings trilogy. You know the drill… dragons, magic rocks, armies and villages, overcoming adversity and learning life’s lessons all at the same time, etc. Don’t get me wrong, I’m thrilled to see that he’s found something he’s into besides video games (something that requires him to READ even !), but sheesh! During my research, I found this snippet from an online book review kinda funny: “Paolini’s writing is, like his main character, growing much more fluid and sure here, with almost none of the embarrassing clunkers that marred the first book. His dialogue, though still the stilted, formal speech beloved by authors of high fantasy, is less hackneyed and clichéd.” Wow. That’s a little harsh considering that the author started writing the book in question when he was like 14!! I also found a site with an online game that takes place in uh… yeah… whatever the name of the place in the story is, www.alagaesia.com/, and added it to the boys’ favorites folder. I haven’t decided yet if that’s a good or bad idea. If you guys never hear from me again, just know that he’s now permanently affixed to the monitor, and it's all my fault. While saving it though, I noticed the other sites in their folder. This new one won’t stick out like a sore thumb or anything: cheatplanet.com, gamefaqs.com, cartoonnetwork.com, joecartoon.com, homestarrunner.com, and quahog5news.com. (Just an FYI - that last one is good times!)

So I’ve been listening to CMT (and Sirius Love Songs, channel 6003 – depending on which one's playing the worst song between the two at the moment) while Chicken and I have been sitting here at the puter this morning, only to discover that Bon Jovi taped a Crossroads with Sugarland? SWEET!! (Airing September 16th and then almost daily for a week. You know… for those Jovi *coughRichiecough* fans out there.) CMT also has something they’re calling “Duets Week” starting Monday. *giddy* I SO DIG DUETS. And then?? They also have some special airing on September 18th… 100 Greatest Duets. O… M… G… (Yeah… how silly is it that I get completely giddy over this sort of thing?? I’m ADDICTED to love songs. How many country songs AREN’T love songs. And now there’s a duet special on the country channel?!? I’m so there!!) The other day I caught a vid taken from that taping. It was Jamie O’Neal and Carrie Underwood; they redid Reba McIntyre & Linda Davis’ “Does He Love You?” (It sounded AWESOME. That song came out how many years ago? *googling* Released in 1994. It still hasn’t lost it’s impact for me though. I cried like an idiot!!) *watching Keith Urban and Lee Ann Womack announce CMA nominees right now* That Keith’s a funny guy, who knew? WOAH! WOAH! WOAH!! Just caught a commercial for the Jovi/Sugarland Crossroads… you Richie fans might not wanna watch it after all. It COULDA been the editing in the commercial, but it APPEARS that during Wanted… Richie’s not even NEAR a mic! The vocalist for Sugarland sang the backing vocals. That’s just… wow… W.R.O.N.G.

I’ve decided that I’m too sensitive to watch the goings on RE: Hurricane Katrina. I was all about it when the media frenzy first started. UNTIL... I was at work one day giving morning medications to a guest, and while in her room I caught a snippet of a story of some older gentleman who was caught in rising water with his wife. At one point things just became to difficult for her, so she told him to tell the children and grandchildren that she loved them, and she… let go. SHE LET GO and the water just...took her away. Forever. OMG… I CAN’T. EVEN. IMAGINE. I immediately burst into tears and vowed never to watch again. I've donated all that I could afford. I pretty much cleaned out my pantry and donated the food to a local church here in STL who’ve been sending food/supplies to the gulf. A day or so ago, again in a guest’s room at work, I caught the snippet of uh… some government/city/town (hell, I don’t know. I was again trying NOT to watch) in Mississippi (I think) crying hysterically & asking for help. Followed closely by a firefighter who stated that they broke through the roof of a house to pull and 11 yr. old boy out of the attic only to find his mother in there with him… dead. AGAIN, I burst into tears. I can’t handle this sort of shit. I cry if I just SEE someone else cry. This is the stance I had to take with the 9/11 terrorist attack too. I was off work that day, my mother called and said to turn the television on. I watched, HORRIFIED, for like four hours crying the entire time. I then had to boycott television and the newspaper for a good 3 months. I’m one of those people that most other people hate when it comes to stuff like this because I’d rather remain completely oblivious than to know what the hell is going on. All of this media coverage has two main objectives: To inform and to gain enough attention so that people will step up to the plate and help. I don’t want to be informed and I’ve helped all I can help right now. Done deal.

I should probably finish the laundry and get to the grocery store. Might even spread a lil’ bleach and Pine Sol 'round this joint. I’d hate to have to have the “I don’t tell you what to do with YOUR days off / that’s because I actually DO SHIT on my days off / wash your own fucking clothes then” discussion again. *rolling eyes* ...cuz tha’s good times, right? Who wouldn't wanna do that again? Haha.

Besides... I need to call the mini storage place back home. I pay them for three months at a time and by the time the next 3 months rolls around, I've forgotten about them. I know, I know... that's what statements are for. Anyway, the owner lady, Pat (yeah, we might be on a first name basis by now), left me a voicemail yesterday. "You know... we don't mind keeping yer stuff here for ya. We dont' mind at all if you'd just pay us." OH! That Pat... always a hoot! Lemme go call her...

Have a great day, everyone! Peace out.

WTF, people?

2005-06-01T23:26:51Z

I'm a dedicated people watcher. I notice shit. You ever just sit back, at a club or something, and REALLY watch people? It's a hobby of mine. I like to see how other people do "stuff"... how they relate to the people around them? Little things... like... Do they make eye contact with others? Do they thank the bartenders or just walk away after scoring their beer? When they're diggin' someone, are the stares/glances as obvious to the object of their affection as they are to me? There are the FUN ones too... the pathetic ones that will do anything to be noticed. The ones that have NO CLUE how desperate they appear, the attention seekers. The ones that become whatever they think people expect/want of them, the approval seekers, the "Please, notice me," types. Get a sack. How needy and ridiculous are you willing to go here? How insecure can you be that you NEED that kind of attention and gratification from others? WTF, people?

People who live in glass houses yet throw stones piss me the fuck off. People who love to mind your business? People all up your ass and around the corner? People who love to hand out advice and condemn you for your actions and decisions? Am I hurting you? NO. Does what I do and say directly affect you? No. Is everything on your end all rainbows and roses? I didn't think so. WTF people?

Stupid people piss me off... the ones that just don't "get" stuff. IMPORTANT STUFF like what being a responsible human being is all about. The ones that don't know how to step out of their stupidity bubble long enough to realize how the rest of the world works? Those ignorant to the inner workings of interpersonal relationships? Those that end up looking like they have no pride only because they don't know any better? They don't know when to stand up for themselves and when not to? The ones too immature to deal with adult issues on an adult level who thereby end up looking like an idiot to the outside world time and time again? The ones that are too stupid to realize how stupid they really are? Grow up. I'm not saying that you have to actually care what other people think, but have a little dignity, would ya? Every decision has a consequence. Take an extra 10 seconds to think about shit. WTF, people?

Those that manipulate and control other people can fuck off. Life isn't a game. Stop dragging others down with you. Just because you're not happy doesn't mean that everyone around you has to be miserable as well. Life isn't about personal gain, BE HAPPY. If ya wanna be happy and drag others along for THAT ride, so be it. But stop using people, stop lying to people, and stop making everything about you. Karma's a bitch, and it bites people in the ass everyday... HARD. You OK with being liked because people are afraid of you or afraid of what you might do/say? Drop the power trips. Stop the guilt trips. Mean people suck. WTF, people?

I'm pretty sure I've forgotten a few... Actually, I know I have. *have a few people in mind still* Got any good ones? Drop me a line. I'll be back after the weekend; we'll discuss amongst ourselves then.

SIDENOTE: You ever actually go through the entire list of "moods" only to realize that you can't quite pin down how you're feeling w/ just ONE? Fuck that... tonight I'm: aggravated, annoyed, anxious, awake, bitchy, confused, contemplative, curious, dissappointed, dorky, drained, excited, frustrated, geeky, guilty, hopeful, irritated, jaded, lonely, melancholy, moody, nervous, sleepy, stressed, uncomfortable, & weird.

All hail Midol.

Collide

2005-06-01T23:24:48Z

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

40 Crazy Questions

2005-06-01T23:23:13Z

(stolen from MotelySweetheart)

1. Have you ever finished off the popcorn and ate the junk from the bottom of the bag?

Ate it? I've ripped the bag to pieces just to lick the inside.

2. Have you ever had sex in a tent?

Nope.

3. Have you ever had a secret crush on a teacher?

Ewww, no.

4. Do you own more than 100 cd's?

Hell yeah.

5. Have you ever been so drunk that you have passed out?

Nope, but I hurl rather easily.

6. Have you ever dated a goth?

I'd remember this, right? No.

7. Have you ever regretted a date?

Nope.

8. Have you ever seen a ghost/ufo?

Nope. Not saying they don't exist, only that *I* haven't seen one/them.

9. Have you ever done anything you could be arrested for?

Nothing heinous... but those laws that were grandfathered in? Ya never really know, do ya?

10. Have you ever done anything you could go to jail for?

Nope.

11. Have you ever broken a bone?

I have an odd hereditary thing... it's almost impossible for me to break shit... I'll sprain it all to hell, but I've never broken anything.

12. Have you ever crashed a car?

It wasn't my fault. Swear.

13. Have you ever fallen off a bike?

Who hasn't?

14. Have you ever refused a date because of what your friends might think?

Nope... I go for what I'm about at the time. Screw what anyone might think.

15. Have you ever listened to a song and cried?

Are you kidding me? ALL THE TIME.

16. Have you ever seen your favorite band/singer perform live?

MANY TIMES... ain't that right, girls?

17. Have you ever been found sleep walking?

Nope.

19. Have you ever watched a Tomb Raider movie without being aroused at some point?

I'm sure Laura Croft is HOT, but I haven't seen it.

20. Have you ever dated someone a decade older than you?

Again... I'd remember this, right? NO.

21. Would you date someone a decade older than you?

Only if I found him to be my everything.. then I guess it wouldn't matter. Have ya seen the list though? That's a LOT of everything to be!

22. Have you ever sent a crank call or email?

Nope.

23. Have you ever been pregnant or got someone pregnant?

*waving* Hello. Children over here.

24. If not, would you like children?

I like them muchly... I don't want ANY MORE necessarily, but the ones I have are grand.

27. Have you ever had major surgery?

Yep... the time I found out I'm allergic to morphine.

28. Are you afraid of the dentist?

I'm a TEETH person. Dentists are da bomb.

29. Do you have a tattoo?

Only one.

30. Have you had any piercings done (not including the ears)?

Naval and tongue.

31. Have you ever been shit on from the sky?

That really happens?!

32. Do you like scary movies?

I don't have to sleep alone afterwards, do I?

33. Do you like your job?

I LOVE IT.

34. Do you get along with your parents?

Absolutely.

35. Do you still have all your grand parents?

I wish. You can't learn the good stuff about people when you're young. Having them around NOW woulda been choice.

36. Have you ever had a date with someone you met online?

Nope.

37. Do you ever wish you could relive your childhood?

It wasn't THAT great the first time.

38. Have you ever beat up your computer?

Nope.

39. Have you ever watched The Goonies more than twice in a day?

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT MOVIE. "Heeeeeey you guuuuuuuys!"

40. Have you ever wondered why you fill this shit in time after time?

I'm a sucker... and a nosey bitch. I figure with as much stuff as I've read about other people... I can "give a little" too.

Have a great day!
~LU

Please... feel free to reply with your own answers. For some reason... I love this stuff!!

More about me than you ever wanted to know...

2005-06-01T23:20:07Z

(Stolen from Dizzy)

1. DO YOU SNORE? Yep. Good times.

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? More lover than fighter. Just don't piss me off and we'll get along just fine.

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR? Never being *completely* happy.

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? Nope.

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY"? It's usually OK, unless you've had one of those like... surreal weekends. Then going back to reality SUCKS ASS.

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? Nope.

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? I've never thought so. LOL

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? NO.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? Beige?

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? Nope. I sing in the car where people are supposed to sing. I can drive and sing. I can't bathe and sing.

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? HELL NO.

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? I can bake like a mofo.

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? I don't have one... YET. Vegas is a pretty good one though. .

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? NO.

15. CAN YOU SWIM? Like a fish.

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"? Nope.

17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Depends. Am I gonna end up like... a scorch mark on the sidewalk?

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP? How many dimples are there on a standard golf ball?

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? Why would I want to?

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Many, many times.

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? Nope. One younger sister.

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? I'm all about mechanical pencils. *click click*

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? I could NEVER bring myself to hunt an animal. I can't even eat meat that has a bone in it, and sometimes have deep philosophical discussions/issues while COOKING meat. The older I get, the worse it gets. My son swears I'll be a vegetarian by the time I'm 40.

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? I've heard it is. I have issues where marriage is concerned. I'm all about having a wedding, but the being married part scares the begeebers out of me.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I like it when I first get started. I write so much at work, that by the end of the day, it's illegible.

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Plants and shit. Fuck ragweed. Oh... and Morphine.

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"? Actually SAID IT? Sometime yesterday.

28. IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE? Doubtful.

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? Oh hell... I cried like a baby at the last one I went to. This was just before I considered throwing myself into the baptismal pool. You know... I figured it couldn't hurt.

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Fried, over easy.

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB. *stern look*

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? It just waits around until I throw his mate away, then he reappears.

33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 1:35PM

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? "Lu"

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING? I don't think I'm a very good judge. The only thing I ever eat there is FILET-o-FISH, no cheese, extra tarter sauce.

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Everyone I know drives SUV's or trucks... so... car? Mel, what'd you rent from the airport in Chicago?

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS: I PREFER bubble baths, but end up in the shower more often than not.

38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? You better believe it.

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED? Yes, please.

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? "Hello, my name is Tina. I'm 30 and afraid of the dark."

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? Diet supplements.

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Am I eating it w/ a spoon? If I'm eating w/ a spoon, crunchy. If I'm eating on a sandwich, creamy.

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? Yes, but I don't anymore. You can't do that shit w/ a herniated disk.

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Nope. *knock on wood* I've never had a reason to.

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Twice. Once when I woke up and then again after coffee and a cig.

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Yes. Unless we're talking diet suppliements here, then NO.

47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? NO.

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? With or without contacts?

49. HOW LOUD DO YOU SNEEZE? Loud... Like a DUDE loud.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? For the most part.

51. WHO'S BETTER: STONE COLD OR THE ROCK? I love them both equally.

52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? NO, but I dejavu a LOT.

53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"? Yep, way back in the day.

54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS? Nope... I can break out w/ just a smiggin of stuff on piano/keys, but not even CLOSE to enough to say that I actually "play."

55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY? When I was like... 5.

56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? Have never tried. I'm not really an athletic OR an outside kinda gal. I sprain things. Often.

57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Camping? Camping... that's like a room and a pool, right?

58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH? If I laugh hard enough.

59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? NO.

60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND? No. We love them, but other humans should be Man's Best Friend.

61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? No. It happens. It happens FAR too often... which is why I'm scared to be married. If I never marry, I can't end up divorced. See how that works?

62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? Every time I get a strike while bowling. .

63. DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? I've made my share.

64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? It's mild and sunny, around 67*... I'm about to go lay out.

65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Ate? Ate... let's see. Beef jerky? No... smoked almonds.

66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? Most of the time.

67. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED? Kissed? You guys realize that I have children, right?

68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL? I LOVE TV COMMERCIALS. It's the programs in between that are annoying.

69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? I bought a pair of shoes there once.

70. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? Making Memories of Us - Keith Urban.

Feel free to reply with your own answers. .

OK! Ok! 3 Things:

2005-01-02T19:39:41Z

A painful death?!? Sheeesh.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Tina
2. Lu
3. Lu Lu

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

1. I've only ever been TinaLu. How boring is that??

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. How I'm learning to be myself.
2. Humor.
3. Brain

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. Insecure.
2. I have no willpower ie: diet & exercise = usually not successful.
3. I'm overly emotional/hopeless romantic.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

How sad is it that I don't even know??? I'm A MUTT.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. When ppl I'm normally VERY chatting with aren't really speaking much to me.
2. That I'll never be the person I want/need to be.
3. Being stalked.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. Cell phone.
2. Car.
3. Internet.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1. Sweat pants.
2. STL Cardinals T-shirt.
3. Wonder Woman undies.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists(at the moment)):
(in no particular order)

1. Poison
2. Motley Crue
3. Cinderella

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:

1. Don't laugh!.... Ryan Cabrera "True"
2. Any song by Keith Urban.
3. ANY 80's song.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS

1. Um... I don't have these sort of aspirations? Is that wrong?

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):

1. Mush. I need mush. I live off of mush. I need ppl to need me and show me that they need me.
2. Communication.
3. Trust.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE

1. I miss "home"
2. I'm sad that the holidays are over.
3. I need to paint my toenails.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. Eyes
2. Teeth
3. Nicely built. ;)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:

1. Be on time.
2. Stay awake for extended periods of time.
3. Go very long without talking to or hanging with my girls (stolen from Mel)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1. Hanging out with my girls.
2. Listening to music
3. Eating and surfing the internet.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

Ha! I'm not gonna like... actually DIVULGE such info.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:

I'm a nurse. It's what I do.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

1. Somewhere islandish with beautiful beaches.
2. Vegas repeatedly. (Diva... you're coming along next time!)
3. Anywhere where there might be live music and MY GIRLS.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

Shit... I once had a list of things I'd like to do before I was 30, but I had to throw them out the window. Once again... no aspirations. I'm SO abnormal.

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:

I'd never wish such things upon others. I'm a nice girl... REALLY.

Dear Diary

2004-12-14T18:13:02Z

Ok, so it's been like... 6 MONTHS or more since I've gotten around to this. I've got a ton of stuff swimming around in my head, but getting that all out and making sense of it could prove to be a challenge.

So... yeah... CRAZY PEOPLE. Have you ever really paid attention to how many of them there actually ARE? Like... they're so crazy that they don't even realize that they're crazy? Here's my public service for the day: EVERYONE... please take a moment to think about this. If YOU think that EVERYONE ELSE THAT YOU KNOW COULD POSSIBLY BE INSANE, chances are... YOU'RE the one with issues. GET SOME HELP. Really. Crazy people are funny to watch though, right? Like... FROM AFAR. You know... like watching the bears from outside of the zoo enclosure and never wanting to be in there with them kind of afar? Another little hint... If I don't speak to you, and have told you in a past life to your face that you're crazy, that REALLY means that I don't wanna talk to ya. :D Stop telling my friends that you love me and that I should call you. NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

I think I wanna write a book. I just don't think I have anything worth while to write about. I mean, I HAVE some stuff... but is that REALLY the kind of things I want the entire world to know about me?!? *thinking* NO. And the stuff I *do* have to write about... is it interesting? Would people actually wanna like... pick it up, thumb through it, buy it, take it home, and waste their time reading it? Or am I gonna end up in the book version of that bargain bin that I buy all of my CD's from? (Maybe weirdos like me actually GO THROUGH THE BOOK BARGAIN BIN???) Should it be a FUN book?? Something that cheesy girlfriends that never get to hang out send each other accompanied by little cards saying how much the book reminds them of each other?? Should it be all serious?? Something to teach the young'ens of this country how hard it is raising two children alone?... reasons NOT to be a single mom? Should it be thriller? I had THE BEST/SCARIEST dream a few months ago that I think would make a PERFECT movie. It was so drama/thriller/exciting and all... I should probably start with making it into a book or something first though, eh?

So... the move and the new crib: The move went pretty well I suppose. Didn't take long, not that I had much to move or anything. Photos of the interior of the house can be found in the TinaLu.com Yahoo! Group in the photos section for any of you that haven't seen them yet. Just remember that there are NO PICTURES, NO ART, and BARELY any FURNITURE in the place yet, so it's VERY PLAIN. Click: groups.yahoo.com/group/TinaLuDotCom... it's decorated to the HILT with Christmas stuff right now, it's BEAUTIFUL. I'll work on getting a photo of that up soon. Finding a job took a little longer than I first expected... a little over 2 months. I was hoping to find something in a private office, but that didn't work out, so I'm back in a nursing home working as a charge nurse. I HATED it at first, but I think I was just out of practice. I actually enjoy it now, and I've been learning so much about like... people in general lately. If this is how life is... how everything suddenly starts making sense the older you get?? WOW. Everything has a purpose, people. People around you have THEIR purpose. And YOU, you are exactly where you are supposed to be, usually for reasons unknown to you. So work it, people! ;) WTF am I talking about? "Uh oh... Lu's gone off the deep end."

I may not be where I want to be in life right now, but I'm learning so much about the world around me from the place I'm in, it's all good. Everything's a learning experience... if you're not moving forward... if you think that you're just not getting to where you're headed... are you taking the time to learn from your surroundings? Everything is a lesson. If you're not open/perceptive enough to understand what's going on around you, you'll never learn whatever it is that you're supposed to be learning, you'll be doomed to repeating your mistakes, and you'll never move forward. And the people around you? Maybe you don't like them... what is it about them that you don't like? Note it. Make that change in yourself. You've learned a lesson. Maybe you cross paths with someone that you really like? A friend? Maybe more? You like them A LOT. You enjoy their company, things seem great, but for some reason things don't turn out as you had hoped. You're crushed. Maybe they did turn out as you'd hoped and you're still disappointed. Maybe instead of being crushed, you're just left with a crush. Maybe you learned more about yourself by things NOT going as you had hoped and planned. Maybe in the grand scheme of things, that person had nothing to teach you, you never needed them after all. Because maybe... just maybe, you weren't supposed to learn something from them at all... your brief encounter with that person was to teach THEM something. Still think I've gone off the deep end?? :lol Just dwell on it for a while. ;)

My girls and I have had SUCH a good time the few months that's its almost surreal. Mel even brought up something this last weekend, she was all... "You know what I've been thinking? We met online." :lol I've never really given much thought to internet-based relationships. I mean like... people who meet online, and then move across the country to go be with the love of their life. When I think of the WONDERFUL people (overlooking the few bad apples I've run across) I've met online, the friendships we've formed, the AMOUNT OF FUN that we have when we're together, the common interests we have... I suppose it could be true to find your soul mate out there via the internet. Who am I to judge, ya know?

Our last two outings together, the girls and I (Holly, Mel, and myself - not that those are the only online friends I've grown to love as was previously discussed) went to see a Poison tribute band, Posin. How come no one ever told me before that... TRIBUTE BANDS ARE FUN?!? The first trip, the girls and I holed up in a hotel, drank, hung out, went to sleep, got up, ate, went shopping, started drinking again, took the mandatory 3 to 4 hours to get ready, and then headed out to the show. WOW. I'm like one of THE BIGGEST Poison fans EVER... and for just a moment, with the girls by my side, I actually FORGOT that I wasn't at a Poison show. WOW. We even found another Bret! ... The 2nd trip, Mel and I got to the hotel, drank, went to breakfast around 1AM, continued drinking, got up, ate, shopped for a moment, napped, and then took the mandatory 3 hours to get ready before heading to the show. :lol See a trend here? Anyway, thanks to Tommy and Dave of Posin for being so cool! And dear Bobby... you're still gay! I'll have some more memorabilia up on the site soon because somehow I left the first show with a guitar. Who knew??

Anyway... I'm tired... MORE TO COME. (Because I completely left out the details of the Bad Boys of Metal Show). ;)

Peace out!